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my bf lives with me

well here's an update i have a bf and he's really awesome and we hang out all the time and i got him to play WoW and we go on fun adventures irl. so basically this summer all i do is hang out w/ my bf, eat mcgriddles even though i'm tryin to quit, watch kenan and kel, and raid. i got my wisdom teeth out yesterday and it hurts and i can't eat and i threw up all over the bathroom this morning and it sucked even worse than just a swollen bloody mouth pill head sleepy jerk who can't eat anything besides 3234234 pills cause on top of that i just throw up all over the place too. so i'm probably gonna fall asleep again goodnight ps i'm goin to europe for two weeks in two weeks n__n

I want to be in love :( but like a cool romantic story love like... I'm walking down the aisle in barnes and nobles and I see the cutest guy ever (imo at least) and my heart falls out of my body and I can't even think of anything cool to say and then we look at each other and I just want to die but in a good way then he says something awkward and I'm like "hehe I have no idea wut u said tbh *nervous laugh*" then we both try to say something at the same time and I laugh and look the other way and he does too cause we're both lil fags :( and then we both go back to that same barnes and nobles in hopes of seeing each other but we try to act like we aren't doing that by denying it to ourselves like "yeahhh nana vol. 17 comes out this week >.>" then when we don't see each other we feel really sad and every other cute guy/girl in barnes and nobles isn't even exciting anymore. then finally after a few weeks we see each other again and I want to run out of the store because I'm so incredibly nervous but we wind up talking forever and then...... that's the end cause shit like that never happens to me ever. well the last part at least.

hmmm, I actually don't want a bf to be honest, I just want all the cutesy fun shit.

I meant to post about my weekend for a few days but I've been busy either going to see cirque de I can't spell it, sleeping all day or raiding or both. Okay so, friday night I went with hannah to go see Grizzly Bear. When we were walking to the venue, this guy came up to me and gave me a CD and I just can't say no to people so I'm like oh cool... then he somehow convinced me to give him 5 dollars and kissed me on the lips lololol. Yeah so that was just the start of weird events. We get to the venue and go get a drink right away, it was SUCH a ripoff and the guy didn't know how to make anything. I was like "Can I get a kamikaze?" and he's like "What's that?" so I said "Okay, can I get a long island iced tea?" and he said he didn't know how to make that either.. so I finally just settled for a ten dollar rum and coke in the tiniest cup with mostly ice cubes and coke. So me and hannah were pretty annoyed about that, so we went to the bar next door after the opener and before Grizzly Bear and got an actual drink. We went back and grizzly bear was on and they were so awesome and they played all the songs we wanted em to play :) When they played knife, just the atmosphere of the place and the song itself reminded me of BTTF under the sea dance n_n

By the time it was over it wasn't even 11pm so we decided to walk around time square. We walked up to central park, and there was a group of people there so we weren't really worried, we sat on a bench and just talked about life. Then like maybe 20 minutes later most of the people left but I guess we didn't notice. These two guys came into the park and sat on the bench next to ours. Then a little while later some fucking creepy guy with crazy braids came up to us and told us that we should go find a quieter place to sit and we'd get more privacy and we just kept saying "no thanks we like it here" we thought he was going to leave but he kept talking about the weirdest fucking shit that it really really scared me. He started asking us if we took any self defense classes and stuff, then he got in hannah's face and grabbed her poster. All the while I'm trying to get the attention of the other guys on the bench next to us. FINALLY they came over to us and asked us some trivia question but the creepy guy like shooed him away and I was like ugh fuck.... Then I asked hannah if she had a cell phone and she said yes and I'm like "ARE YOU SURE because I can go ask those guys..." and she was like "oh wait I don't have it lol" so I walked over to the guys with my back to the creepy guy and said do you have a cell phone but I mouthed HELP US LOL and they were like sure, where do you need to go and I'm like out of here please. And the creepy guy started yelling like "YOU SIGNED SOMETHING TO HIM, AND I DON'T LIKE THAT!!!" and we all just started walking and he's like NO YOU'RE NOT LEAVING WITH THOSE GUYS NO NO AHFDSIOFSOJ started pushing me and one of the guys and freaking out and we finally just like sprinted away from him while he's screaming "faggots" and "bitches" I was SO GLAD that we got out of that situation and those guys were there because I think if me and hannah tried to leave he would have followed us or done something really weird or even tried to hurt us.

Yeah so, we're alright but that was probably one of the weirdest situations I've ever been in. We walked from columbus circle to penn station with those guys and they were nice but I could tell they were like 17 and lying about it hahahaha.

So, since it was a friday night we were of course on a drunk train and honestly drunk trains are like my personal hell. If there is a hell and if I ever go there it's going to be trapped on a drunk train. Even thought some of the shit was really funny, only when people tried to fight each other. Here's a few videos I managed to get of an incredibly drunk girl trying to take on 5 guys for whatever reason. After they finally got off the train the girl banged on the windows and it just made me appreciate the fact that I'm me and I will never be that obnoxious and ridiculous in my whole life.

I haven't written as often as I usually do, I guess maybe because of twitter? man i am so lame, but if you have it follow me and i will follow you back! https://twitter.com/athinabina

Yeah so anyways, my life has been good lately, I feel really good the past week or two. I had a really weird few dreams last night though.

One of them was with me, my brother, my dad in my grandma's apartment but my grandma was asleep so we kept trying to wake her up.. then she finally woke up and we asked her if she was okay and she seemed really out of it. So we were looking out the window (my grandma lives in manhattan) and some building just collapsed, then another, and another and we were like oh shit, this one is next! then it collapsed, but somehow we had enough room to squeeze out of the window. It was really scary but I was so relieved we were all okay, and I remember feeling bad that we didn't check if anyone else was okay, we just went to a supermarket down the street and started getting food but instead my dad and brother got a bunch of paper towels.. and I was like nooo we need food! and that's all I really remember.

I had another dream my teeth fell out and I kept trying to hold it in but it fell out and I took the tooth and showed it to someone in my dream.. but when I woke up I was soooo glad all my teeth were still in my mouth! I hate those kinds of dreams.


oh another thing before I end this entry, some sushi place opened up like RIGHT near my house and they have the most amazing sweet potato tempura rolls and veggie fried rice.. I've been eating it everyday this week! :D

I've been sleepin so weird lately, AGAIN I can't stay awake past like 8pm and I don't know what to do hahaha. I can't seem to get a set balance, I either stay up all night and sleep all day or sleep all night and stay awake all day.. Anyways, I've realized that I'm totally in love with keanu reeves even though he's kind of a sucky actor and he's like 40something idc I just find him extremely attractive... well it all started when I watched A Scanner Darkly the other day and even though he was cartoony I was like SHIT HE'S SO HOT, and then I wanted to watch bill and ted so I downloaded it.. and I now know that if I had one wish... well okay if I had three wishes one of em would be to make luv to keanu reeves, and uhhh the other two would be umm to live in my dreamland which is a cartoon land filled with my favorite things which is puppies, undead warlocks, keanu reeves, crunchy tofu sushi rolls, POKEMON and 80's/90's movies.. I don't know what my last wish would be, I guess wish for more wishes. NO RULES for that, unlike in Aladdin where you can't make someone fall in love w/e, there are no wish restrictions to my make believe wish situation.

I've been updating a lot recently oh whatever.. anyways, today was a pretty neat day even though it wasn't actually that neat it just felt different. While I was driving to school at a red light this smashing pumpkins song drown was on XM and the sky looked really cool and there were a ton of birds flying around in the distance and it just made me feel really awesome. So, I went to class and in Japanese I was partners with this guy behind me I think his name is like pj or tj or something with a j and he's so cute but like.... I'm not attracted to him at all, he's cute in a nerd azn dorky lil kid way and I was his partner for the dialogue and I just couldn't stop laughing and then he said bye to me and idk it just made me feel good and made me feel like I should do that with people, I try to but sometimes I guess I forget.. like just saying hi and bye to people even if I don't really know them because it makes people feel good.

Yeah so after class I went to the bagel place near my school and I got a bagel and these soy chips omg they were soooo good I want some more :( then after that I went to Barnes and Nobles and I read some manga and I kept friggin picking series by accident where the 2nd volume wasn't actually in stock and then I got antsy after like 3 hours so I bought a few other ones and left. Then while I was driving home my favorite grizzly bear song came on and I was so happy, and then right after that brothersport by animal collective came on and I freaked out I'm surprised I didn't drive into a tree.. yeah so I went to the bank and put in my other check from when I worked at regal for 5 mins and I got my slip and it said like 5 bucks and I was like WHAT THE HELL IS THIS and it made me so furious it almost ruined my whole day and I'm driving back to my house cursing and my blood's boiling cause I don't know how I overdrafted... then when I got home I realized that it just didn't process the check yet and I never overdrafted hahahahah woo.

and now that I feel good I'm probably gonna clean my room in a little while.

yeah so I had no class today and my server kept going down all day so I was really bored and I made a gnome and blood elf on RP servers and tried to get people to date me ( my quest for an rp date )

The past few weeks have been strange heh.. I've been feeling like a dead battery or something, I haven't really talked to anyone and I just feel like I need to reset myself or just wait it out until I feel normal again. That means I've been playing WoW an extremely unhealthy amount in the past few weeks, like 12+hours a day... everyday lol. I can't even believe how much I've been playing lately.. I cannot escape azeroth, it's disturbing because I even dream that I'm still playing.. I really need to give it a rest :(

Yeah so while I've been honor grinding the past few days "defending" shit in bgs but really I just sit there and read a ton of manga and do my hw.. anyways, I get so sick of the same fkn themes in a lot of series.

some examples are - omg i rescued u from something but u have supernatural powers too so now you have to work at my weird shop or live at my house to pay off your debt, oaifjdsf-san can't get into a good school :( or just transferred to some weird school with a bunch of kawaii moe neko animu waifu magical guardian chibi angels that hatch from eggs that also all appear in sifjsd-san's house and live with him and are sexualized in some way that borderlines pedophilia, sfsdjf-kun gets a robotgirl/doll/alien/nonhuman living in his house or room and he can't choose if he loves her or his childhood friend girl next door plain but still moe cutie huge boobs and they both wind up naked every 5 minutes by accident and sweat drops come out of 34osdifjs-kun's hair. I don't know why I even read it when I know what's going to happen...

I mean not all series that have a theme like that suck, but a lot of them are really ridiculous. Like I read Legal Drug the other day and even though it was cliche it wasn't bad. I started reading Shugo Chara! the other day and I just got half way through and I was like wow this is fucking retarded.. and Rozen Maiden omg, I really liked it at first and then it just drove me nuts with those god damn name suiseiseki and souseiseki who the fuck is which, one of em looks like a dutch boy but besides that I still like that series and I wanna be hinaichigo forever

hey guys, I hope everyone had a good Christmas O:)

Mine was good, I mean it wasn't like amazing movie type awesome but it wasn't bad at all. Uhhh, on Christmas Eve a ton of people were at my house to have dinner and stuff, I mean I ate but I always hate like being in a room with a ton of people I don't know why.. So I just played WoW with chris all night LOL and then I watched this movie Step Brothers with my sister omg it was really funny.

Christmas day was weird because usually I sleep at my mom's house but everyone's moving out of that house so it's just very different this year :( So I actually opened my presents at my dad's house first. I got some coool stuff, I didn't really ask for a lot because I feel like I already have everything I really want anyways a cool computer, ps3, 360, HDTV lol. OH YEAH Cari's sister got me this really awesome sushi set it's like sushi dishes and chopsticks and soy sauce stuff I was like HOW DID YOU KNOW I WANTED THIS?? Yeah so I also got a wireless keyboard and mouse, some dvd shelf thingy, a bunch of clothes, gift cards, some manga (museum of terror and MPD psycho), degrassi on DVD, Tales of Vesperia, My Japanese Coach for DS, Pokemon Platinum (japanese version but it didn't come to the house yet cus my dad ordered it too late T_T), vegetarian sushi cookbook, a cool tea set, a necklace, socks lol, a pikachu lamp, and I think that's it.. but my brother got me something that I didn't open yet.. then me and chris are celebrating christmas in 2 weeks irl and I BET HE GOT ME THE BEST PRESENTS EVER n_n

Oh yeah so after I opened my presents I went to my mom's house and had breakfast with my mom bobby bunny liam and johnny then me and my mom watched Tropic Thunder while I tried not to fall asleep.. and omg the kitties got so big and so cute, I can't wait til I have my own place and my own kitties that I can see all the time. Yeah so then I came home and played WoW with chris all day again, then we tried to watch blade runner but I was so tired I fell asleep and I feel really bad cause I can't stay awake ever.

I'm so stressed out lately, I have finals this week, my rooms a total mess (I'm trying to clean it now but obviously I'm doing other stuff like going on the internet instead lol), some idiot hit my car the other day and the whole trunk is caved in I mean their insurance covers it, it's just annoying as hell to go through all that shit, I gotta go to the doctor all the time cause I got whip lash from it


AND THE WORST THING THAT IS PISSING ME OFF THE MOST IS THAT I SOLD MY WII ON EBAY and this stupid mom somehow got a refund from paypal because they took the money out of my account overdrafted me and in total I lost 400 bucks when I sold it for 256 and I SHIPPED IT TOO. She's like oh I didn't get it yet, the money she paid me didn't get into my actual bank account until december 4th, it was shipped on december 8th and I ALSO GOT IN A CAR ACCIDENT THAT WEEK. I messaged her saying sorry for the delay on shipping I got in a car accident and she's like omg I'm so sorry then this week she started a paypal dispute and I had no idea paypal emails you the same day they take out the money because if they emailed me before I would say hey, I shipped this shit idiots. I gave her the tracking number and stuff, and she's just whining cause it's delayed I guess for Christmas, I mean I shipped it, now it's costing me more money, it's costing me like double what she paid me so I lost like 200 bucks almost from selling this thing and I'm really just so pissed about it that I can't think straight at all. My dad's like ohhh don't try to put money in your account let them bill you for overdraft and then make them pay it back and I'm like omg I don't think it works like that even though fucking paypal should pay the overdraft fees and put all of the money back into my account because I'm not fucking losing money while some dumbass keeps my stuff AGHHHhh fuk lyfe

oh yeah another thing that has really been bugging me lately.. So I'm like an internet champion, I've seen tons of shock, weird porn, gore shit and it usually doesn't bother me. I don't even like violence, gore or anything. The thing is, I can NEVER resist clicking a link that someone posts anywhere.. I'm always like oh god I need to see it. but recently I've been trying to not do that cause some shit really burns into my brain and I CAN'T UNSEEE anyways, I've been doin pretty good resisting my curiosity.. but the other day I saw someone post a video and claiming that someone was murdered in it and I'm like yeah right that's totally illegal how could this be possible. So of course I went to it and oh god, it really freaked me out so bad, I couldn't even get more than a minute into it when I stopped. It's been bothering me for like 2 days, I just can't get over it. I keep trying to find out if it's real so I googled it so hard for like 3 hours I'm googling away.. but there's hardly any information online about it besides threads of people talking about it on message boards and like this ONE article from some weird "news" website that can't even spell correctly. So, I don't know, I just really hope it was a hoax but it looked so real I cried after seeing it. I'm so glad that I'm actually human unlike a lot of people who I guess pride themselves in not being squeamish the way I do. I'M NEVER WATCHING INTERNET SHOCK VIDEOS ever again, okay for a week at least.

On wednesday I went to some bad art auction with hannah and hahahah it was fun. A lot of funny stuff, basically I drank 2 long island ice teas and told some guy off. Well, cause xiu xiu played and he was just being a total obnoxious douche bag the entire time. So when we left, cause he was trying to talk to us before like zomg punch me in the face cus I can't talk to girls and I'm like yeah you can find a dominatrix on craigslist probably.. then we saw him get kicked out and when we finally left he's like HEY!!! and I'm like hey, you're a jerk! and I just went off but I wasn't like cursing or screaming I actually felt drunk but not like... I don't know I just didn't curse or act like a fool.

HAHAH yeah so before that whole thing, hannah drove us there and we got lost like 23035345 times hahaaha and this guys like yeah u wanna park here it's 28 bucks and we're like YEAH UHH NO and we found a spot for free like 30 seconds later. oh and we also went into pizza booth to eat something before xiu xiu played and... I first saw pizza booth thinking wow that's a cool name it must be fun there.. and it was just, so disappointing. I mean the pizza was good it was just like... regular place. THEN THIS GUY just starts talking to us about performing naked on stage and telling us about how he was at a NWA show and people got shot and killed... I guess he was saying that cause we said we were seeing a band play and that's a story he thought that kind of related but it really didn't.

YEAH SO TODAY WAS SO COLD AND I HAD two midterms and I didn't sleep at all last night and I was like yeah.. I'm gonna be fine and I really wasn't I was SOOOOO TIRED OMFG. I went back to my car and slept for like 2 hours before my next exam and it was the best nap in the whole world.

So wednesday me and hannah went see mirah for my birthday it was great we also ate tons of veggie sushi and felt so full hahahah fuck rice bro FUCK IT DOOD. So thenn saturday it was originally supposed to be like 12 ppl going but it ended up just being me, hannah, caleb, david and taso.. we all went to brooklyn for this like halloween gameboy music party thingy it was pretty neat.. hahah okay to be honest we stayed for like 15 minutes then we went to the bar next door with the intentions of going back but me taso and hannah never did.. I felt bad cause since david isn't 21 yet he wasn't allowed in which was kind of lame, so david and caleb went to get pizza and in that time period of them going to get pizza I got completely drunk HAAHHHAA. it was so fun, I'm so glad I have good friends now even though me and taso just fought about warlocks and rogues all night and ret pallies hahahahahaha and I curse so much when I'm drunk.. I think that's the only bad thing really because I never throw up or make out with people or do anything that I really regret I just curse a wholeee lot.

Oh so I got an HDTV AND I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT IT and my mom said that she's gonna take me to get a lil qt kitty tomorrow ily life n___n except for the fact that I've been sick for the past few days ughh.. I stayed home from school yesterday and just played warhammer all day and watched rozen maiden and today I did the exact same thing, I called in sick to work and I'm watching rozen maiden as we speak and I did all these hallow's end shit in WoW all day

I have a bunch of pics but I'm way too lazy to post any of them right now I'll probably just post em all next week after halloween heheheh :)

so today even though nothing that great happened, it felt like a really great day. I went to school and stuff and my japanese class was so fun today we all got candy from japan because our 先生 lol sensei went to japan last week to try to get kids there to come study abroad here. THEN we all got to draw pictures and the other side of the class got our pictures and we had to ask around to who it belonged to in japanese and I got the funniest one hahahahahah this wacky guy drew a book and it said NORWEGAIN WOOD HAHAHAHHAHAH. it was the best and I actually made friends today, there's this girl vicky I talk to sometimes and now I feel like we're friends and this other girl angela that I ate breakfast with today. And all day I kept looking at people and some people I want to just make into a character in a book or movie cause they just look so interesting I guess I don't even think that's the right word or if this even makes any sense the way I'm trying to explain it.


I went to the mall after class and I got a new pair of jeans and then I went to barnes and nobles and I got a pumpkin spice latte and read some manga weee and I saw some qt and I just felt so good so I went to toys r us and I saw this cool pokemon toy set and it said 14.99 so I HAD TO GET IT but when I bought it it was actually 29.99 but I was like oh well I got a jewelry kit and stickers too and I talked to this guy forever about ps3.. then while I was driving home I just felt so good and I saw the sun through the clouds and it made me feel so amazing and the light turned red and I didn't care cause I didn't wanna keep driving cause I really liked that feeling that I got when I saw the sky without the trees in the way and I got to stay there at the red light for a little while longer. I like days when I feel like this, like I appreciate feelings and things around me more and I feel like a new person or like a kid who sees everything for a first time and takes it all in and appreciates it.

Sooo, umm I had a few days off this week so I hung out with some people.. me and Hannah went to kotobuki omg it's soooo good and I WENT THERE AGAIN on friday with my sister..I also hung out with cheyenne on wednesday and we didn't see each other for like 2 years before that but that's another story.

So I bought a bunch of manga because I used to read it a lot in high school but I stopped and now I started again and I love it again.. on friday I had an hour break in between my class so I went to the bookstore and read the WORST MANGA EVER HAHAHAHAH omg it sucked so bad and I read the whole thing I have no idea why it was called like Absolute Boyfriend holy shit it sucked but it was the only halfway decent one besides uhh death note at the school bookstore and I already know what happened in death note...

Oh and I realized that I really just suck at talking to cute guys irl without using the internet to talk to them first holy crap I'm the worst, this guy called up for like rockband 2 drumset for 360 and he sounded so cute and he asked me where the store was and stuff so I guess he's never been to the one I work at.. and when he came in cause I knew it was him cus he was buying it hahaahahah I was like omg, he's so cute and I got so nervous I tried to talk about something and I can't even remember what it was and then I forgot that I had to hit accept on the screen for the credit card so I'm like why isn't the receipt printing out and I just kept talking then I realized and I'm like holy shit he probably thinks I'm some loser :'( I just hope he comes back and talks to me and makes me feel like the shoujo mangas I've been reading all cutesy lovey wuvy crap god I hate my life XD someone please give me tips on how to flirt IRL.. I mean I don't srsly want a bf right now it just feels nice to pretend like there will eventually be some romance in my life someday

ALSO WARHAMMER IS AWESOME IF YOU PLAY IT TELL ME WHAT SERVER YOU ARE ON SO WE CAN PLAY TOGETHER SRSLY